It's taken me 3 weeks to get my arse back in gear and get serious about working out and my food intake again. I had a few wake up calls yesterday.
1.) The scale is up 3 pounds since my last weigh in 3 weeks ago
2.) Yesterday after breakfast, we went for a family bike ride on a bike trail I love. I wanted to just wear a pair of jean shorts. When i put them on I realized they were most difficult to button. They were fine last summer!
3.) My new addiction "The Millionaire Matchmaker" called out an overweight girl during her screening, on her being too heavy. "You have a gorgeous face. no, really your face is just beautiful. You have that angelic, young beautiful face that I would love to have but you just need to lose like 10-15 pounds. I'm sorry but really if you just lost 10-15 you would be stunning". Now even though I love Patty's boldness to say the truth, my heart sank for this woman. Patty basically implied she was too heavy to be date material for her club.
That last one really hit me. It's hard enough to date online but it's even harder to date when you're overweight. Your weight is the first thing people will focus on and it's the first thing men will say "next" to.
My friend Jen once told me "I think when you lose weight you attract a different category of men". What she meant is when you are fat, you will attract other fat males or sleazy men that think just cause you're fat you will be an easy target to get into bed because heck fat girls are lucky to get any guy at all . Basically you won't meet the right men who want something serious with you because deep down, men want a beautiful and healthy (thin) woman.
Now I do realize there are plenty of good men out there that are attracted to a woman's "inside" and can overlook her belly or big hips. I just can't seem to find them.
So I really think in order to improve my dating life, I need to get serious about my weightloss goal and finish this! Luckily with the weather I am more motivated to being outdoors and being active outdoors.
My goal for this week is to workout at the YMCA after dropping off my son at school in the morning. no excuses! Just go get my workout over with so I can return home distraction free and start my at home work online.
I know this post rambling makes it sound like I need to lose weight to attract a decent man and you can interpret all this however you want. All I know is I have been single for the past 3 years while trying to drop weight so obviously being chunky isn't working out for me.
Of course I want to lose weight to be healthy, be a better mom, look adorable in anything but ultimately I want to be a happy and healthy wife to someone someday.
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